NYE, Raw and Real

44C9528E-0ACD-46FA-8794-04B7AF18F51F.jpegWell it’s probably the least eventful New Year’s Eve that I’ve ever had… For months now, I’ve been looking forward to meeting up with my girl HP to go snowboarding out in Colorado. We’ve been hyping it up for a while now and I couldn’t wait. It’s been highly anticipated because how fun is that?! Shredding with my pal.. doesn’t get much better.

I’m always a little skeptical about getting excited about things in the future, though, because I know things happen and, being the paranoid over thinker that I am, I never want to get ahead of myself because I know I could be let down. Well here we are! My flight this afternoon was delayed on and on and on until it was ultimately canceled because of ice in Dallas. Can’t control those things. Can only control your response, right?

Let me backtrack a bit. The past couple weeks have been super sweet. I’ve gotten to be home from Branson, and have truly enjoyed lots of good quality time with my family. There’s honestly nothing I love more. An ideal night for me is being home with my mom and dad and sister (and bro in law) and playing nerts after we cook dinner. Simply the best. But if you’re reading this, you know I also really love traveling and adventuring and kinda always being on the go. True. And I am super passionate about working out and eating good food… lol. So, what does that have to do with anything? Well all three of those aspects of who I am can play into my desire for my life to function a certain way.

Let me explain. I always want to take every single opportunity to travel at the drop of a hat, experience new things and enjoy life to the fullest. In and of itself, not bad. I have this overwhelming desire to work out all the time. In and of itself, not bad. I essentially plan my day around my food choices, aiming for them to be healthy and quality. In and of itself, not bad. But what was brought to my attention last week was alarming and all too true: I allow my own agenda, driven by these factors, to trump just about all else in my life.

Discipline in health is something that we should strive for but we should never allow that to be all consuming. Similarly, adventure and travel are blessings we can enjoy. By all means, go on trips, make memories, see the world and meet people along the way. But don’t allow it to be the default, causing anything below that standard to be insufficient for you to be happy…

I think in our millennial culture today, Christian and non-Christian alike, we keep ourselves so busy chasing happy moments that we miss the beauty and joy of stillness. We don’t want it, really. A day with no plans is a lackluster recipe for depression… What? How did we get here? At what point did I allow my source of joy to waver so much that it is no longer anchored on Jesus but rather His blessings I get to enjoy and end up expecting? And then from there, how did I so casually wander off into this mindset where, if I’m honest, the adventure and hobbies and lifestyle and you name it, have scaled over my affections for Jesus? I find myself sinking into this rat race for fulfillment. But I’m a believer, a Christian, a Christ-follower; I am content in Him alone… right? If I’m not; if I’m more often selfish than I am self aware, does that call my salvation into question?? If I pray and pray for my life and heart and attitude to look like what Paul describes in Philippians 2 but all I find myself doing in that regard is failing, then what does that say for me?

I sulk in discouragement and defeat, feeling as though I’m unworthy to fly the flag of Christianity as I become disgusted with my passion and fervor to learn and know and speak truth accompanied by a lack of follow through in the nitty gritty daily grind of life unavoidable.

So, I’ve found myself lately in this spiritual disarray. And the reason I’m writing is to communicate that. To be vulnerable and let anyone and everyone know that I suck. I don’t ever want to come across that I have it all together, that I am some young Christian guru who is thriving in life. HA. HA. That’s funny. Ya see, I’ve got a lot of stuff I’m still working through and wish I could say my stat chart of progress was more impressive. But to be real, it just isn’t. I’m stubborn and THANK GOD He is so so gentle and patient with me. He is FAITHFUL, and has been, to keep me on the narrow path of sanctification that brings its fair share of speed bumps and pot holes and curves and bends in the road. Let me tell you, it’s not always fun.

It wasn’t fun last week to have my dad call me out and tell me I’m so selfish and put my agenda ahead of everybody else as my default. Wasn’t fun at all. My dad’s opinion to me is second only to God’s. Lol. But really, he is my favorite person in the world, my dearest friend, and most admired. So those words HURT. Even though he confronted me in love and with discernment, it still obviously wasn’t something I enjoyed hearing. But sometimes we NEED things we don’t necessarily want.

The week before, I overheard someone talking about how all I talk about is myself. OUCH. Dang, that one was rough. But ya know, as you read this… who is this blog about?? HA, yep, myself. But hopefully more than anything, it points you to Jesus. That is my intent. But the point is that really hurt, too, but God used it to re-open my eyes to a flaw in me that He wants to refine. The natural human condition is that we are most concerned about ourselves. That doesn’t make us special. No, what makes us special is when we abandon our natural sinful tendencies of bitter jealousy and selfish ambition (which cause quarrels and conflicts among us – see James 4), and seek the wisdom from above that is pure, peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, and without hypocrisy. Can’t truly be on that kind of a search if our minds and hearts are clouded by our own narcissism. That’s kindof harsh. But I need to be harsh with myself oh so often to remember how desperately I must depend upon Jesus.

I’m talking about James right there because it has really penetrated my heart a ton over the past year. I made the commitment a couple months ago to commit the entire book to memory. And, thankfully, I have only a few verses to go. But you know what is so discouraging?? As I am meditating on Scripture and literally memorizing a book of the Bible, I don’t necessarily find it easier to resist temptation. All the selfish ambitions still persist to nag at me for my attention. How defeating! But I’m subtly reminded of how all encompassing a relationship with Jesus is. He tells us to love the Lord our God with all our heart, soul, mind and strength. That is holistic. To truly experience peace with God and with people, we must engage and invest every fiber of our being into the triune God. Dig into the Word, yes. But also talk to God; commune with Him in prayer. Discipline ourselves to apply His commands and precepts; we cannot stop at knowing and being able to recite them, although that’s a good start.

I get a little antsy when people say, “it’s not about behavior modification; it’s about heart change.” Pet peeve kinda, because gospel living absolutely involves behavior modification. Heart change is directly correlated with behavior modification, and vice versa. If my heart changes but my behavior stays the same, there is a problem. The Christian life doesn’t come without sacrifice and without discipline. To really know Jesus, love Him, serve Him, and allow Him to live in and through you, you have some responsibility. It doesn’t just happen by osmosis. Life with Jesus might begin with an altar call but it really manifests in us with a call on our lives. A call to discipline ourselves for the sake of godliness (1 Timothy 4:7). That takes some work. A call to work out our salvation with fear and trembling (Philippians 2:12). That takes some work. Now, being saved is an act of God, not a work of our own (Ephesians 2:8-9). But our salvation isn’t a finish line but a starting point. Hebrews 12:1-2 describes our race and it’s not a race to salvation but a race from salvation. So, sanctification is a part of the Christian life. It affirms our salvation to us while simultaneously reminding us of our brokenness and need for our Savior and Sustainer Jesus.

Wow, I have a million trains of thought all running on different tracks… Sorry, I hope you’re still trackin with me because I want to share a central point to this multi-faceted message I’m trying to communicate. So back to me sitting on my couch at home all alone on New Year’s Eve because my ski trip just didn’t work out… I. Am. So. Thankful. So thankful that my Heavenly Father cares much more deeply about my holiness than my happiness.

After a less than stellar conversation with my dad on the way home from the airport… okay honestly it was pretty awful actually and made me keenly aware of just how entitled of a brat I am… I walked through the door of my house sad that I wasn’t on my way to the mountains, but God immediately shifted my focus onto the bigger picture. Sure, I’m missing out on a fun trip and I’m sad about it. Okay, valid. But sometimes life just happens and things don’t go our way. And DANG I’m talking about a ski trip. Some people have never even been skiing and I want to complain… perspective! Also accurate.

But even bigger picture for me personally is this ah-ha moment that rocked me in the best way. The last couple weeks as I’ve been super discouraged about continuing to struggle so hard with selfishness and wanting God to root that out of me so I can look more like Him, He uses a canceled ski trip to effectively work in that very struggle.

So as it clicked for me just as I opened the door of my house, the tears came. Tears had already come from frustration in the car and whatnot because idk I’m an extra emotional girl sometimes. But these tears were out of admitted brokenness and overwhelming gratitude that the Lord chooses to gently refine me in the most intricate of circumstances.

It often takes tough conversations, but praise God He places people in my life who love me enough to have them. Dad, you sure are that person nine times out of ten. I thank God for you a whole heck of a lot but still not even close to enough. You’re the most special friend and father and confidante and running buddy and football watching pal and relationship advice giver and on and on but everyone’s heard it a thousand times. Hahaha. And I’m truly sorry for ever taking that for granted.

Heck, sometimes God allows you to hear slanderous things about you that might not even be fully true but He softens your heart so that you don’t fully reject that criticism but allow it to humble you.

And sometimes God steps in by tailoring your winter break plans to fit His heart transformation plans. And shooooot, forgive me Lord for often having the knee-jerk response of savagery and bratty entitlement. Praise You, thank You for extending a greater grace in spite of my shortcomings (James 4). I am always apprehensive about getting excited for things in the future because we just don’t know the future and I hate to be disappointed. But even in those moments of retrospect, let us respond with the theology of James 4:13-15. “If the Lord wills.” With big things and small things, I want to emulate a gospel lifestyle. I want the gospel to not only flow from my tongue and my laptop, but from my day to day actions and attitudes!

So this is where I’m at on the last calendar day of 2017. Sitting at home alone in Saint Martinville, Louisiana missing out on that fun ski trip I had planned but somehow peacefully joyful and content in Jesus being all about the hearts of His children really getting and actualizing the gospel.

 

 

thankfulness

// thankfulness: the consciousness of benefit received; the expression of thanks //

We often think of thankfulness as a feeling of gratitude when, really, I’m convinced it is more of a posture. In our daily lives, in our emotionally charged, feelings based culture, we easily find ourselves swinging on a pendulum of inconsistency. Amidst our ever changing feelings and emotions, those which are tossed to and fro by every wave of circumstance, person, and place, remains one constant. That is, if and only if we are anchored. The anchor of constance that firmly grounds us and causes us to withstand changing environments and events is the Truth. The very Word of God. Unchanged generation after generation. As true today for an American in 2017 as it was for the Hebrew people in the Old Testament as they looked forward to a Savior in B.C. times.

As I read through the stories recorded within scripture of Israel’s deliverance from slavery and oppression and its journey into the promised land, I can’t help but see a mirrored image of entitlement and ungratefulness present today. We desire the Lord’s blessing and often want it now. When He provides, we are so thankful and praise Him for it. When we are in a season of drought, we sink into discontentment and disobedience.

When our attitudes and actions are so inconsistent, it is a direct reflection of a deeper issue – subjective gratefulness rather than objective gratefulness.

Subjective gratefulness is easy and what the world expects. When things are good and we are happy, we are thankful. But objective gratefulness has nothing to do with external, situational happiness; it has everything to do with an internal posture.
The object of true biblical thankfulness is the person of Jesus Christ.

On this thanksgiving, and every single day, I want to be truly thankful. I don’t want to just feel warm and fuzzy inside because I love my family, have more than I deserve, and am enjoying life and think “there’s a ton to be thankful for.” That’s great and such a blessing, don’t get me wrong. But those external things can change apart from our control. The one thing that is constant through change is Jesus. The living Word of God.

If I get caught up thanking God for everything He’s given me and don’t just sit at His feet in total awe of Him, I’m really missing it.

I’ve been so convicted lately about such a simple but profound question: do I spend more time talking about God than I spend talking to Him? In ministry I can get so burnt out on “discipling” yet neglecting to be discipled. I can teach scripture on overload yet struggle to apply it. And I think that aligns so closely with this topic of gratefulness. Do I find myself so grateful for what God has done for me but only casually grateful for God Himself?

If we look at our lives and analyze the way we spend our time, I believe we will quickly come to some realizations. Anyone can live a life of subjective thankfulness but when that thankfulness becomes objective, that’s when heart transformation in the life of a Christ follower is evident. The life of one who is fixed on the person of Jesus, not primarily for what He has done but for us but for who He is.

So, what is driving our attitudes and the things we do and say? It is the gratefulness that is rooted deep within us. If that gratefulness is subjective, I can assure you it will change because it is based on feeling, as with anything we allow to be motivated by our emotions. And I’m guilty of this more than I’d like to admit.

But if that gratefulness is objective, it will be fixed on a holy and loving God, affirmed by His constant character, and rooted in His Truth. To be objectively grateful is to be wise. Wisdom, as affirmed throughout scripture, is knowledge of the person of Jesus Christ. Deep, intimate knowledge of WHO HE IS. To know Him is to love Him and to love Him is to live with a heart posture of “consciousness of benefit received; the expression of thanks” to a God who is not a part of my life, but is my life itself.

And let us not be deceived, the benefit received is not salvation, but the Savior.

The Great Divide

Divided.
Imputed righteousness and impotent flesh collided.
Wallowing in the shame of lust having the victory yet again;
Drowning in an abyss of self-absorption and pride – the root of all sin.
Why do I do what I hate while I claim to be free?
Of hypocrites and imposters, I’m the epitome.
Filled with passion and fervor over the gospel and my Savior,
Yet rejecting His freedom with my gospel-ignorant behavior.
How do we reconcile this paradoxical paradigm?
Sanctification is a gritty process but glorification is sublime.
Those aspects of salvation are accomplished in one moment yet don’t occur simultaneously.
Today I’m saved from my penalty of sin but I don’t always walk in that truth harmoniously.
So wherein lies the great divide of my spirit and my flesh?
Paul says in Galatians chapter five that the two will never mesh.
We choose each day which we will feed;
And consequently we decide which to impede.
Emotions and impulses swing to and fro like a pendulum of disaster.
You see, we have to decide ahead of time, “Who is my master?”
I cannot serve two, so why do I even try?
One is full of truth; the other is a lie.
How long will I meander through mediocrity and cop out of conviction
As I sink into self-pity and live as though freedom from bondage is mere fiction?
As I break down my predicament of war within my soul,
I realize the key to authenticity in a heart that’s been made whole:
Guard it, above all else, for everything you do flows from it.
So when the Holy Spirit offers you conviction, embrace it and don’t numb it.
What am I listening to? What am I seeing?
Eliminate the garbage and the results are freeing.
If you claim affection for Jesus as your Savior and your Lord,
Why would you think letting go of worldly pleasure is something you can’t afford?
Lay aside every hindrance and the sin that so easily entraps.
Don’t just sing a song, hear a sermon, and hope your life adapts.
Wrestle with sin; don’t let it put you in a headlock.
But remember Who’s living within; He is your strength and your rock.
So when you feel tapped out, like you’re seconds away from K-O,
Remember your victory is mapped out and Satan gets the final “woe.”
Because it’s not just you in the ring;
No, your fighter is the King.
And until all creation, of His holy name, does sing,
You’re living in the beauty in between.

a wretched world & a righteous Redeemer

Why? Why an unfounded mass shooting in Las Vegas? Why Hurricane Harvey devastating Houston? Why Irma coming soon after and hitting the east coast hard? Why ISIS inflicting torture and terror across the globe? Why so much pain and hurt and conflict over the stand or kneel debate? Why so much evil and so much corruption and SO MUCH suffering?? The world is just getting worse and worse left and right. Every time we turn on the tv or read the news, there’s another tragedy to take in. So we ask “why?” We just don’t understand how people could be so crazy, how calamities and natural disasters could strike back to back to back and be so unrelenting.

Behind the world’s why, though, is often an accusation. With every tragedy comes a pointed finger because we want so badly to understand the things we cannot. We need some form of closure. There has to be an explanation. If God has created it all, then He has control over what goes on in the world. So, then, it is assumed that He must be the why behind every tragedy. Because it is just such a cop-out for us Christians to say that every good thing comes from God but every bad thing is just something He allows. What makes us know the difference? And when we look at the Bible, we can find throughout the Old Testament that God not only allowed some awful things to happen but He commanded for lots of those things to happen. So then we are left dumbfounded, drowning in uncertainty and lacking any clear answer to give to our world.

The world’s sorrow is valid. The questions we ask are normal. We are finite humans with the inability to perfectly understand all there is to know. Duh. But we want to know. We hate not knowing. We all can fall into the same boat, Christian and non-Christian, of questioning and lacking understanding. So what’s the solution??

We ask “why” but really the answer to our why is more clearly discovered in the question of when? When does all of this hurting and pain and suffering and evil subside? When do we all get along? When do crazy people stop killing others for no apparent reason? When do hurricanes stop wiping out cities? When do tornadoes stop ripping through houses?

Though no one can tell you the exact date on a calendar, you can rest assured that it will end. You see, when sin first entered the world in Genesis 2, this was the fall. Not just the fall of humanity. This was the fall of creation as a whole. God had created everything. Not only that, but after each thing was created He said it was good. Every. Single. Thing. Was. GOOD. So how did we end up here?

When Adam and Eve ate from the tree, they fell to the deception of the devil. And what was originally good became less than good. Sin wasn’t this thing God created; it was a corruption of what God created as good.

Romans 1 speaks to this whole concept. It talks about how all of creation groans to be reconciled back to God. The earth itself. It explains how we allow sin to infiltrate our lives and we no longer honor God like we were created to do, but rather we worship creature over Creator.

Just like Adam and Eve, we fall to the deception of the devil all the day long. We exchange the truth of God for the lies of Satan. We elevate things God created as good above the good God Himself and end up drowning in sin-laden living. How do we get back to what is good? Not by chasing good things. But rather by falling at the feet of the Only One who is good in worship. We have to get back to worshiping the Creator. Because whether we surrender to Him or not, He is coming back to reconcile the whole world to Himself. And that is when all the pain and suffering ends. That is how the Christian has hope in a broken world like this one. I don’t have any hope that if I live a good life my life will be free from pain, but I do have confidence that even in the midst of trial, my hope is secure. Because my hope is not in some better humanity. That is such an empty hope it’s ridiculous. My hope is in ONE Person – Jesus Christ, the Son of God, the Lion and the Lamb. The One who bore the sin of every man on the cross. My hope is secure because He has already come and sacrificed Himself and risen again to offer me life abundant and eternal in Him, and He is coming back in the end to rule and reign over all. He has the last word. No man stands a chance. There is nothing more reassuring than placing every ounce of trust in Him.

So, this earth, today and ever since the initial fall in the garden, is extremely broken. But the more aware I am made of its brokenness, the more mindful I am that this is not my home (2 Cor 5:1). The deeper I yearn for my true home in heaven with the Author and Perfecter of my faith (Hebrews 12:1-2), the Savior of my soul. The more I long for this world to be reconciled to Him.

But so much of the world misses this and gets caught up in questioning. I have lots of questions, too. But I find a sense of comfort in having questions because if I had it all figured out, God wouldn’t be God. But He is. Therefore, His thoughts and His ways are far above mine (Is. 55:8-9).

I know a big question of the day is about how a good God would allow so much evil and pain. And then many feel it is a cop out to say that anything good is from God but anything bad is just something He allows… and then people bring attention to the Old Testament of the Bible where there are so many examples of God not only allowing violence but commanding it. This is where it gets tough. And I totally get that. It’s super hard to wrestle with these issues.

At the end of the day, though it is so harsh, God is God. He is the ONLY ONE who is holy, perfectly righteous, omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent, and almighty. He has every right to do what He pleases. He literally can do whatever He wants and it doesn’t matter what I think. That’s so humbling and terrifying but it’s true. So just the opportunity to live is grace. Each day, every moment, is a gift. Anything less than death is grace because all we deserve is eternal death. Yet, He created us not to be robots but to be humans with a soul and a will. We have emotions, a brain, a heart. We can make decisions. He offers us the opportunity to live our lives how we want to. We can’t control everything that happens in life but we can decide how we respond to things. The Bible tells us that the angels long to live life like we do because they were never broken so they don’t get the chance to be redeemed like we do. You see, there’s something more beautiful than being born into perfection: being born into brokenness but being redeemed and restored. What is wrong being made right. What is bad being made good.

And back to God’s harsh action in the Old Testament. We have to remember that the Old Testament was pre-incarnation of Christ Jesus. The Old Testament shows us the Israelites in their beginning stages as a nation. They were given the Law from God through His servant Moses. It came to reveal transgression (Gal 3). Without the Law, humanity had a sense of right and wrong (Eccl. – God has written it on the human heart), yet the Law reveals sin and what that means for us. It separates us from a holy God and earns us eternal death (Rom 3:23, 6:23). So, in the Old Testament salvation was still available to everyone even though Jesus hadn’t lived on the earth yet. They put their faith in He who was to come and today we put our faith in He who has come.

But God had a plan for His people and He was demonstrating His character and the identity of children of God through His chosen people of Israel in the Old Testament. There were Gentiles who made God their Lord and were saved by grace through faith, like Rahab, while God was bringing His Hebrew people into the land He had promised to them (Canaan). However, most of the people outside of the nation of Israel were corrupt and wicked. And God dealt with them as He said He would because we needed to understand the severity of sin. God had to show us that He takes sin seriously and so should we. And I don’t know if we’re necessarily better off today living in comfort and common wickedness, while in the Old Testament people were wiped out when they lived these kinds of lives. God tells us in Romans 1 about how He eventually gives us over to our sin when we continually worship the creature over the Creator. I mean how many of us are guilty of idolatry? I sure am on a daily basis. We elevate even good things over the BEST thing. That makes me an idolater. This current day idolatry infiltrates our lifestyles and before we know it we are giving God lip service but our heart is truly far from Him. Because, you see God doesn’t just want our religion status on facebook; He wants our heart, soul, mind, and strength (the greatest commandment that Jesus gave us).

So when we are living our lives and look around and see so much brokenness and suffering and pain, though a lot of times it is just SO SAD and SO ROUGH, it is grace. It is more than we deserve. Because we are living in the “in between.” Christ has come to the earth, lived, died, and risen. He has offered us life and life abundant in Himself (John 10:10… probs mention that one in every blog because it’s just so stinkin’ short and sweet but life in a nutshell). And yet, life abundant on earth is just still not quite the real deal because the anchor for our souls lies in a fixed hope built upon the person of Jesus Christ seated at the right hand of the throne of God. That’s in heaven, people! This world is NOT our home. It is temporary. Maybe that’s a cliché song by Carrie Underwood. But it is also undoubtedly the truth I wake up each day clinging to as a believer in the Kings of Kings, Lord of Lords, Savior of my soul. This world is so imperfect, and the very best things here still leave me empty because they are just a dim picture of what will one day be my infinity – H E A V E N. And ya know what makes heaven so great? Perfection, no sorrow, no pain, no suffering… Of course, but what makes it that way?? The full presence of the triune God. He dwells there forevermore having conquered sin and death once and for all, seated in His everlasting rest. And all of His children (descendants of Abraham from the Old Testament and adopted gentile believers – Ephesians 1, 1 Peter 2:9-10) will offer Him the worship He is due. In authentic spirit and truth. What a day. The whole world will be reconciled to Him. Complete restoration. Every knee will bow and every tongue will confess (Phil 2). So, each day we truly can consider it all joy amidst trial (James 1) because it is not without purpose.

It’s like watching your football team play in the national championship. But the game is already over and you know your team has won. You know the final score yet you’re watching the game recorded. Sometimes it feels like you’re behind or you have a lot of adversity to overcome. Yet, it’s so funny how you still get so nervous watching every play when you know the outcome. It’s like we forget. The end is written. But we’re living in the present. The enemy never had a chance, yet with every fluctuation in the game we question if our team really wins in the end. WE KNOW WE DO. So take heart. He has overcome the world. This world that is fading may be all we know now on the full spectrum, but the world we were created for is what our soul knows and longs for. Keep pressing on, not in your own strength but in full assurance of the accomplished work of Jesus on the cross for you and me. Place full trust and hope in Him. And when you turn on the tv or read the news and hate what you see, rest in the promises of a promise-making and promise-keeping Heavenly Father.

This. Is. Not. Home.

This. Is. Not. What. You. Were. Created. For.

So live stocking up for yourself treasure in Heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroy (Matt 6:20). Live for the everlasting kingdom. Stock in heaven will be cashed in full. Stock on the earth will vanish like a vapor. Yet in the midst of our finite lives, God cares about every struggle. That’s another reason Jesus came. As a man. He came to truly identify with us and sympathize with our weaknesses (Heb 2, Heb 4, just read all of Hebrews – it. is. the. REAL DEAL)!!! He is a personal God acquainted with our weaknesses. He was fully man, too (Phil 2). Not easy to understand, but if I could understand it all to a T, why would I believe that He is God?

My heart is heavy. But my heart is also yearning. Yearning to be closer to Jesus. Yearning for Him to restore and redeem and reconcile. I pray, though, that before He does that once and for all, we return to Him. We need a wake-up call as a nation and as a world. What really matters isn’t found in political arguments or racial debates. It is found in one Person. Jesus is really the answer. And when we truly understand that, our lives start to look different and our differences begin to fade away. When we pursue Him, we begin to look like Him. When we look like Him and talk like Him and act like Him, people all of a sudden start to see Him more. He doesn’t need people, but He uses people. He always has!!! So each day when I wake up, I want to ask myself, “who are you living for?” If the answer is anything but Jesus, I don’t want it. If I want to be a beacon of hope to a hurting world, that life purpose is the only option.

Grafted In

The past couple weeks have been unreal. Wow. Just got back from the Holy Land… and what a journey it was to get back to the motherland, people. L O L. So to start off, our flight got delayed by two days due to a snow storm hitting Newark (*plan A)… then it ended up being 49.5 straight hours of travel from actual start to finish for me, including a nice 15 hour flight spanning the width of Europe and the Atlantic Ocean and the mainland US (from Tel Aviv, Israel to the Cali coast), a 3 hour in-plane party on the tarmac in San Fran due to “weight issues”, and a fun little overnight stay in Chicago after completely missing a flight, before the grand finale of making it back to K-Kauai in good ole Branson, MO with a double ear infection and all the sinus things!! Huh what a week it was… most eventful traveling experience of mine to this point.

And that’s just such a fun story to tell, BUT what I really wanna talk about is Israel. Wow, Israel was wonderful. The trip really was a dream. So many of us from the Institute got to go together and soak up the Bible in color. It was such a blessing to be able to go on the trip, with this community, and under the teaching of our own KI Pres, the man, the myth, the legend – Chancey.

It was so neat to be able to see so many places that I’ve read about all my life – to be in the actual Promised Land. To worship on a boat in the Sea of Galilee. To float in the Dead Sea. To hike along the caves where David hid from Saul. To ride camels in the desert of Jordan (most hilarious experience ever…) To step in the Red Sea. To throw stones across the Valley of Elah. To pray on the Mount of Olives.

We really got to see these places; the stories of the Old Testament and the Gospels; the lives of Abraham, Moses, the Israelite people… THE LIFE OF JESUS… come off the pages. Going into the trip, I was kinda blindly envisioning this magical ah-ha moment to sweep over me with every step. Ha, not the case. Israel is a modern nation these days… things don’t look exactly like they did two thousand years ago. Go figure. But, nonetheless, the landscape and landmarks remain and really blow your mind.

I think one of the coolest individual places for me to see was the Red Sea. That was a big moment for me to wake up with an awesome view of it out the window and go sit on top of the hotel.. huh.. and read back in Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy about how God called Abraham to deliver His people from slavery in Egypt and to lead them into the Promised Land. Sitting there in the very land that had been promised from earlier in Genesis when God made His covenant with Abraham to be the father of many nations and to make his descendants great and blessed. Wow wow wow. Right there!

Egypt was a few miles down to my right. This beautiful Red Sea in front of me was the very body of water that the Lord split so that a dry path would be formed for the entire Hebrew nation to cross to safety. Incredible. But they would forget God’s faithfulness and fall into sin cycles over and over and over again, digressing into years and years of wandering in the desert.

Funny, I somehow imagined Israel to be some dry desert, not that beautiful of land… Well, I was wrong because of course God chose prime land for His own chosen people to possess. Israel is a beautiful place with lush vegetation and cool landscape for sure. It is surrounded by desert, though. This brought more clarity to the Israelites’ story for me. It made God’s sovereignty much more visible and evident as I could see what Moses wrote about. The Israelites’ wandering and sin cycles are our redemption story. I forget who my God is. I forget His faithfulness and goodness and constance of character. I choose my sin over and over, and wander in the wilderness of my own choices as I am pursued by a long-suffering Savior.

And something else that was super impactful for me was getting to walk among the Jewish people as they live their everyday life. I saw Romans 11 come to life. The Gospel went first to the Jews then to the Gentiles (non-Jews). Today, there are some Jewish people who are saved, having believed and placed their trust in the resurrected Messiah; however, many Jews have rejected the Truth and had their hearts hardened, eyes darkened, and ears closed to the Gospel. It’s crazy to me that the very chosen people of God, living in the very place where the Bible, the GOSPEL, took place, don’t get it. Yet, the Bible literally says that will be the case. It is crazy. But it’s incredibly accurate straight from Scripture. It’s disheartening that so many Israelite people living in the Holy Land are living under the Law, in bondage to the Law that Jesus Christ fulfilled RIGHT THERE, in that very place. But the Bible is clear that this will happen. And because so many hearts have been hardened, the Gentiles have the opportunity to be grafted in. To be grafted in refers to Gentiles being adopted into the family of God by way of unwarranted election – wild olive shoots grafted into the olive tree and nourished by the sap of the olive root.

Without the truth of Romans 11, grace would not extend to us… it’s humbling and so convicting. But grace extends to you and me as Gentiles, and also still to the Israelite people to repent and be brought back in. And branches that have been broken off can be grafted in again. It’s just crazy to see this evident in real life. God is so good and sovereign and full of grace and mercy. He is active in the details and desires that no one should perish but rather that all would be saved. Getting to be in the Holy Land for  (almost) a couple weeks deepened my love for the God who promised it and so much more for His people. I get to be His people. I’m adopted by grace through faith in Jesus Christ, and that same salvation extends to you. We get to be grafted in!!! There is literally no greater truth to cling to.

 

Fixed Hope

First Peter, y’all. Read it because it’s pretty sweet. I loved getting to be taught through the book of 1st Peter last week at KI. We got to see so much cross-referencing and it really made things clearer and penetrating. One of my favorite parts of my time at the institute has been getting to see the Bible come to life through awesome teaching and in-depth study, really getting to understand the links between the Old Testament and the New. I’ve gotten to see the New Testament concealed in the Old and the Old Testament revealed in the New like never before. It’s been transformative in my approach to scripture and my study of it. That impacts my heart and stirs my affections for the God who breathed this Word into being (2 Timmothy 3:16). When His Word penetrates, we experience the reality of it (Hebrews 4:12) – they aren’t just words on a page; they are truth that our lives depend upon. With that perspective, studying any part of the Bible can be hugely impactful. Disclaimer: this post is pretty lengthy bc I’m gonna go through all of 1st Peter bc it’s too good to leave stuff out! I learned so much and I hope you can learn some of what I learned in reading this!

Let me share with ya what the Lord has shown me this weekend in my study and learning from 1st Peter. As believers, we can be affirmed in our hope of salvation through Jesus Christ’s holy blood sacrifice on our behalf. Looking at Hebrews 9 (HEBREWS – incredible book about Jesus, His role in our lives as High Priest), it’s an awesome picture of what Christ has done for us. He went into the holy place sacrificing His own perfect blood for our sake once and for all. We no longer have to go to an earthly priest to confess our sins and have him make sacrifices on behalf of us for each individual sin, or make blood sacrifices of goats and calves like people had to do in Old Testament times. Blood, innocent and perfect and holy blood, has been shed ONCE AND FOR ALL. That is Jesus Christ, God incarnate, who was the perfect Lamb who laid down His life for all of us while we were still sinners (Romans 5:8). Praise God that our hope in salvation doesn’t waver by our actions – it is fixed on Jesus, the object of our hope, who has done what was necessary once and for all. Through Him, we have eternal redemption if we call upon the name of the Lord in faith (Romans 10:9-10). Nothing we do saves us (Ephesians 2:8-9), only the grace of God.

An interesting concept for me to begin to understand on a deeper level in this study was that of unconditional election. It is very clear in scripture that God has chosen His people before the foundation of the earth (Ephesians 1). There is a beautiful picture of this unconditional election we are overwhelmingly blessed to receive in Ezekiel 16. It blew my mind, really. We were helpless, naked and covered in our own blood, without hope, in an open field. But then God passed by and said to us, “Live!”He entered into a covenant with us and we became His. Then He bathed us with water, washed off our blood and anointed us with oil; he clothed us and adorned us with gold and silver. But we trusted in our own beauty and played the harlot. We were unfaithful to the very One who rescued us from death. He called us into life while we were wasting away in our own shame. Yet, we so quickly took His blessings and made them our gods. We found our identity in things rather than the One Thing. We were adulterers and adulteresses, yet God was and is faithful. He remembers His covenant of old and establishes an everlasting covenant with us in sending His Son Jesus. He forgives and offers us life abundant. Abundant life is found in faithfulness to our One True Love, while hurt, pain, discontentment, shame, and guilt are found in unfaithfulness and adultery. Beautiful picture of how we do nothing to deserve God to call out unto us, “Live!”

We rebel time and time again to our own desires and lusts of the flesh that wage war within us against the Spirit living inside us. We know who God is, but we often don’t really KNOW Him. We believe these things about the Lord that we read in scripture but we don’t really TRUST them. Huh. Yet He patiently pursues our hearts and doesn’t leave or forsake us because we don’t love Him back like we should. We would have no chance if that were the case. But praise God that Ephesians 2:8-9 is true – it is by grace we are saved; nothing of ourselves. But really understanding that should change our heart. Why would we love the world? It steals our joy, causes us heartache and pain, and ultimately destroys. Why wouldn’t we love God and let the things of the world fade knowing they pass away anyway? But the Word of the Lord endures forever. Hold fast to that and don’t waver – God’s Word reveals our hope. Our hope is Jesus and that hope is an anchor for our soul (Hebrews 6:19).

That fixed hope should for sure impact the way we live. We are called to be holy as God is holy. Christ fulfilled the law like we never could to offer us freedom from the punishment of transgressing the law. We pursue righteousness by faith and out of a deep love for our Savior. Living for the world is futile, but doing the will of God has eternal significance (check out 1 John 2). Christ offers us life and victory and freedom and joy and contentment, but we don’t experience it by living to experience all the world has to offer. There is so much more. We cannot serve two masters. To love the world (things of the world) and to love God is an oxymoron. It just doesn’t work – we will be divided; we cannot serve two masters (Matt 6:24). Wowowow that’s just a pretty summarized version of the transforming and penetrating truth found in chapter one!

Throughout 1 Peter, Peter exhorts us to persevere in trial and suffering. In chapter one, he offers us a great picture of sanctification and the reward we receive through it. Fire and gold. Gold is refined through the fire – the impurities are burned away to ash, but what remains is the pure gold. That is what God does in our lives through sanctification – it might be painful at times but there is great reward that does not disappoint.

We grow in godly character by the work of God’s Word in our lives. Sanctification happens when we truly taste the kindness of the Lord, then allow that understanding to motivate us to put aside the lusts of the flesh and allow the Word to penetrate our hearts and move us to action.

Peter affirms us in our identity as believers – 1 Peter 2:9-10 is so powerful. That is who we are in Christ. And not only does that tell us our identity, but it tells us our calling. Incredible. Then Peter goes on to encourage us in godly living. He exhorts us to respect and honor all authority in our lives. He tells us to use the freedom God offers us as bondslaves of God. LOVE that metaphor. A bondslave would be freed from their master but chose to stay with them, under their authority, because they loved them and trusted them. This is a picture of obedience to God, not out of obligation but out of true love and deep affection. If you ever feel a little ehhh about our government situation in America, read verse 18 in chapter 2. No matter how we feel about those in authority, we are called to respect them and pray for them!

Chapter three talks about the harmony intended between a husband and wife in marriage. Wives are to submit to the leadership of their husbands, while husbands are to honor their wives. The two should be one and compliment each other. Ephesians 5 goes into more detail about the beautiful picture of a Biblical marriage relationship. When we let the peace of Christ rule in our hearts (Col 3), there is not conflict and quarreling in relationships (James 3-4).

We are called blessed if we suffer for the sake of righteousness (cross-reference beatitudes in Matt 5). We are charged to present the gospel message of Jesus, the hope within us, with gentleness and reverence (we are to be salt and light to our dark world – cross-reference Sermon on the Mount in Matt 5). Physical baptism doesn’t save us; rather, it is the baptismal picture of Jesus – His resurrection, which has the power to save us.

Chapter four… Christ suffered in the flesh but committed no sin; we, as Christ-followers, are called to the same purpose – to live to the will of God rather than to indulge the lusts of the flesh. We do the will of God by living in the Spirit. Walk in the Spirit so you do not gratify the desires of the flesh; when we walk by the Spirit it is evidenced in the fruit produced in our lives (Gal 5:16-26). The defining characteristics of life in the flesh should be no longer; those who live in this way, nonbelievers, should be offended by the way we live to a higher calling. Our calling is to do the will of God – to be discerning, sober in spirit purposed in prayer, fervently loving one another, hospitable without complaint, employing our spiritual gifts to serve one another, stewarding the grace of God well.

The Gospel isn’t just for us to be saved for eternity; it is for us to be saved now – for our sanctification and proclaiming of the gospel, glorifying God in all the earth. We, as Christians, are called to discipline ourselves for the sake of godliness (1 Timothy 4:7-8). God bestows a calling upon us that is higher than anything achieved in and of the flesh – joy and contentment is found in this living (look at 2 Timothy 1:8-11).

Peter exhorts the church elders to shepherd the flock of God well. He points to our hope in Christ’s second coming, where we will receive our reward in full. He encourages younger Christians to respect their elders in humility, going on to encourage believers to have humility before God. We are to be always on the alert about the devil, who is our enemy seeking to destroy us. We are to be encouraged in standing firm in faith and resisting the devil. In our suffering, God will confirm, strengthen, and establish us. Stand firm!

In light of all this truth packed into 5 simple chapters in 1st Peter, there are plenty of questions we should be asking ourselves. I’ll just list a few… Where do we place our hope as Christians? Does that hope ever waver? Should it? If we profess faith in Christ and receive salvation, what is our identity? Do we not only say we believe it but do we trust it in our core and allow that identity to manifest itself in the way we talk and act?What does it mean that we are referred to as aliens and strangers? (1 Peter 2:11) What do we learn from Peter about suffering and suffering well? What is our high calling as Christians, mandated by God, in light of receiving salvation? How can we practically stand firm and persevere according to what we’ve learned in studying 1 Peter?

Unapologetically Apologetic

I’ve never been super worried about apologetics and knowing how to defend my faith against other religions because I honestly haven’t had a whole lot of encounters where I had to. Growing up in a Christian school from pre-k through high school graduation, I didn’t have a whole lot of friends who disagreed with me. Granted, I did have some, but most were Christians who grew up southern baptist just like me. I had the huge privilege of growing up in an awesome Christian family that not only taught me God’s Word but really lived it out, too. I don’t ever want to take that blessing for granted. But for a lot of us who grow up in Christian families and environments, we can grow up believing in God and His Word just because it’s what we’ve been taught. We can know more truth from our upbringing than we find for ourselves by reading it in the Bible on our own. But we have access to scripture, the actual living Word of God (Hebrews 4:12).

What do we do, then, when we enter into a world that can be hostile to Christianity and tries to attack the Biblical Christian faith? What happens when someone denies the deity of Jesus or the validity of Scripture? That’s where apologetics come in.
Researching the validity of the Bible is pretty neat, actually. Manuscripts, Archaeology, Prophecy, and Statistics (MAPS) all heavily point to the validity of Scripture. Dead Sea Scrolls found years after the Bible was canonized support its accuracy. Archaeologists have found plenty of evidence of people and places referenced in the Bible. The prophecies fulfilled from Old Testament to New are staggering. Statistically, the Bible was written by 40 different authors on three different continents yet retains its fluidity and cohesiveness.

Really, just to prove the deity of Jesus is huge in a conversation with someone who disagrees with the Biblical worldview. Jesus is thought by many to have been a great moral teacher but nothing more, or a god rather than the God. However, that logic just doesn’t make sense. A great moral teacher wouldn’t have been a liar, claiming to be God. Jesus claims to be one with God the Father (John 10:30), so He wasn’t a god… He was either God Himself or no God at all. Some might even doubt His death and/or resurrection, yet no argument stands. God is sovereign and no matter what comes up against Him, His Word, and His Gospel, nothing can disprove it. The Bible has stood the test of time. It applies to our lives today. If we believe it to be true (and we have no reason not to), it changes things. Our life has to be impacted because of what the Bible says. If 2 Timothy 3:16-17 is true and all Scripture is God-breathed, like the very exhale of God, then our life should hang on every word within this book. The God of the universe has given us His Word to reveal Himself to us, instruct us, convict us, to SAVE us (James 1:21). What are we to do with it now?? Abide in it (John 15), delight in/meditate on it (Psalm 1:2), do what it says (James 1:22), handle it accurately (2 Timothy 2:15). And while we’re at it, we can dig into why we can believe it to be absolute truth. Scripture proves itself true internally time and time again. But we can externally find so much evidence in support of its validity. Secular writers who lived during the time frame of Jesus and the gospels, like Josephus, give accounts confirming what is contained in scripture. We have every reason to believe, not much reason to doubt; but any skepticism we’re left with gives us the room to have faith in a God of love who has given us His Son and His Word and when we accept Him, gives us His Holy Spirit. He knows the depths of our hearts and yet He desires to be known by us. And one of my favorite promises in scripture is in Jeremiah 29:12-13… that when we seek Him we will find Him if we seek Him with all our heart. He will be found by us. Amen!

V-Dayyyy

Today’s the big day. V Day ! ! !

We all love the happy sappy love stories. It’s what movies are made of. Our fav rom coms. The Notebook. The Vow. The Lucky One. Nicholas Sparks isn’t half bad at writing love stories. But the greatest love story ever written is far more meaningful than a Noah and Allie kind of love… I know that’s saying a lot, right? What could be better than such a beautiful story of faithfulness over so many years??? The answer: a story of utter infidelity.

A bride that was sought out and chased after, and yet chose to run back to the painful heartbreak of one night stands. She was loved perfectly but she rejected that love out of guilt from her past. She couldn’t erase what she had done, the filth she’d allowed to wallow up inside of her, so she chose to be the runaway bride. She humiliated her Suitor and cheapened His love by returning to the lesser womanizers and getting her temporary happiness from their empty words and meaningless intimacy.

She sacrificed her own body in efforts to find satisfaction but couldn’t keep any lasting joy. Only left with scars, hurt, and pain, feelings of brokenness and heartbreak defined her. She couldn’t accept love from Someone pure who would pursue her without hesitation and call her beautiful. She didn’t deserve that. She only deserved fake love. She didn’t deserve to be known deeply and loved actually. She couldn’t bear to enter into a marriage covenant with that kind of Person and bring all her junk and baggage. She couldn’t become one with Him when she had already been with so many others. The guilt overtook her and so she continued to go after temporary pleasures thinking she had no chance of anything more.

But her Groom didn’t leave her. He pursued her every time she ran. She couldn’t escape His love no matter how hard she tried. She could never build up a wall of guilt and shame so strong that He wouldn’t break through it. He never forced her to walk down the aisle and say “I do,” but He never left the altar. Instead, He sacrificed Himself on the altar, laying down His life for His bride.

The bride, finally understanding that her Groom was never going to leave her no matter what she did and didn’t require her to do anything for Him to earn His love, came down the aisle to Him. She fell at His feet, sobbing uncontrollably and uttered the words, “I do. I am Yours and You are forever mine.” Her Groom didn’t rebuke her for the long road it took her to get there. Instead, He said to her, “You are my beloved. I have loved you with an everlasting love. I will never leave you or forsake you. You can never outrun my love.”

He placed the ring on her finger and her name was changed. Moreover, her life was changed. She became one with her Groom. She experienced the fullness of joy in life with Him.

Yet, she had times where she would forget His love. She would make mistakes and then push Him away because of shame. And every time, He would stay true to her and go find her in her mess to bring her back. He wouldn’t allow her to be stuck in shame but would remind her of her true identity. She just couldn’t wrap her mind around it. Why did He love her so? Why did He desire her love? Because He IS love. That’s who He is. 

That bride is the church. It’s me. I run and run and run from Jesus to other things I think will fill me. I live in the world, clinging to so many material things that can never satisfy. But the Groom, my patient Savior, calls me to Himself. He is faithful and constant in my wandering. His character never changes. As I pursue the world and everything in it, He pursues me. As I settle time and time again for lesser, filthy, temporary things, He offers me the best thing – Himself.

I grabbed a hold of Him some time ago and my whole life was changed. But to be honest sometimes I forget the love He’s shown me and go back to other things. But He won’t sign the divorce papers, people! His love for me doesn’t depend on my actions. It’s dependent on His character. And He IS love. The more broken I am, the more I understand the love with which I’ve been loved. Christ’s bride doesn’t just get a name-change. We get a life change and an eternity change. That’s the gospel. It’s available to you. All ya gotta do is Romans 10:9-10. U don’t gotta b single no more.

Thnx 4 reading my fav V-Day story – double meaning bc love and sweet victory, am i right?

Until next time,

Swhite

Hebrews: fav brew of coffee / fav brew of Scripture

HEBREWS. Wow, what a book. It was a blessing for sure to be taught verse by verse by a very knowledgable teacher at the institute this past week. There is so much depth in the book of Hebrews, but I just want to share a little bit about what has stood out to me this past week.

One, the book majorly talks about how Jesus is our High Priest. The High Priests in the Old Testament would make sacrifices on behalf of the people to cover their sins. Throughout the OT we see so much about sacrifices of unblemished animals because from the beginning it is made clear that “without the shedding of blood, there is no forgiveness of sin.” (Hebrews 9:22). In the Old Testament, then, how did people receive salvation? Before Jesus came… It says throughout the OT and throughout Hebrews 11 that they had faith and it was credited to them as righteousness. So, they were saved by grace through faith. That sound familiar? We are saved by grace through faith in what Christ has done – His death and resurrection. The people of the OT were saved by grace through faith in what God would do through Christ. Coooooool. God wasn’t just waiting around wondering how it was all gonna work out. He had a perfect plan from the beginning and it happened all according to His timing.

But throughout the OT, these righteous people still had to make sacrifices for their sins – they sacrificed spotless animals to make propitiation for their sins. This was in obedience to God, in faith. But several years later, Jesus came to earth, taking on flesh and blood, being made in the likeness of man. He bore the penalty for our sin, taking it upon Himself, to shed His own perfect blood and be the propitiation for our sins. WoW. That’s incredible. That’s the Gospel. But we gotta preach it to ourselves every day. It doesn’t get any less powerful or less beautiful. We were dead in our trespasses and sins, by nature children of wrath deserving of death, yet at the proper time God made us alive to God in Christ Jesus. Read Ephesians 2 bc it’s fiyaaaaaa. If we are in Christ, this is our status — we were DEAD, now we’re ALIVE.

So Christ came to earth in His full deity to experience full humanity for us. He came to die and rise again – to defeat sin and death and offer us life eternal. But, He even came just to get it. To experience life as we know it. So, y’all, we don’t have some God who is distant and far off. He is personal and right there with us in our pain and sorrows and struggles. He gets the little things and the big things and everything in between. He cares, He sympathizes with our weaknesses. That right there humbles me, encourages me, and just stirs my affections for the God of the universe who was revealed in the life of Jesus Christ of Nazareth. He wants relationship with us. Do we really get what that means? He wants us to come to Him, to sit at His feet and to love Him because we really get His love for us.

I wanna get it. And being here in Branson, MO at the Kanakuk Institute, I’m really starting to understand more and more on a deeper and deeper level. It is pretty stinkin sweet. But there is so much more to learn, more to grow in, more to understand. That’s the thing. We’ll never arrive at understanding everything and being perfect… we always have more to learn, more to be refined in. There’s beauty in that – in the wealth of the Gospel. Not some earthly materialistic thing, but this wellspring of life that keeps on giving and never runs dry. Where does my treasure lie? I find myself over and over again, consciously or more often, subconsciously, treasuring so many other things above God and His Word. Good things can distract us and keep us from the BEST thing. Know what I’m sayin? It’s rough. We have to constantly be honest with ourselves and ask what do I value most? God or His good gifts? Do we pursue the source of joy or just its result? If we pursue happiness itself, it’ll always slip our grasp; but if we pursue the source of all joy we have all we need.

My fav passage of Scripture, well, one of them, comes from Hebrews 12:1-2 “Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.” That is a picture of what the Christian life should look like. It’s a charge to believers, an encouragement to us.

I love to run. If you know me you know this fasho. Well, a couple months ago I started getting shin splints because I was running with old shoes. Felt the pain, but avoided it and pushed through it without acknowledging the problem. So flash forward a couple weeks and I tried to rest a little bit to heal the shin splints. Didn’t wait long enough though, and felt the pain again right when I tried to run. HUH. BUMMER. Literally so distraught. But it kinda gives me a visual for this passage. When we allow sin in our life to go unchecked or distractions/encumbrances/hindrances to persist in our life, we suffer. The longer we let it hang on, the more detrimental it is for us. There is always pain in dealing with sin or hang-ups in our life, but the longer we avoid them the more pain they cause us in the long run. Huh, pun intended.

My shin splints came on because of a fault in my running of the race so to speak. Now, I have an injury which causes me to not be able to run for a whole 4 weeks…….shooooot are you kidding? Yeah wish I was. So when we allow that sin or those hindrances to hang on, the result is that they cause us to be ineffective and steal our joy of running the race. I LOVE to run, but right now I don’t get to enjoy it and I’m not an effective runner, obviously, because I have to stay off of my shins for 4 weeks. Our sin doesn’t disqualify us from the race but it does make us ineffective for the time being and causes us to miss out on the joy to be experienced in running. 

Well, God is using the little trials in my own life to reveal more of His heart and His Word to me and I’m just soaking it up. I’ll admit my attitude isn’t always spot on. Ha. But I’m so thankful for those times that the Lord stops me in my tracks to say, “Hey, I love ya and I care more about your heart and your relationship with Me than your comfort.” Huh, my “wisdom” pales in comparison. Good thing we have Hebrews to give us some awesome insight into life and the deeper things of God.

Just another typical week in Branson—Mind. Blown.

I’m pretty stinkin  long-winded, so if you actually have read this far, I thank you.

Over and out,

Swhite